naked & exposed

month

April 2010

24 posts

I wish you were normal

WTF, don’t act like everything is cool. The last time we talked, you were completely hysterical. You threw a complete shit-show over something that isn’t my fault. I mean, is it wrong of me to wonder about your life? And isn’t only natural that I inquire? Plus, you & your actions made me even more skeptical about everything and everyone, especially you. Now that a few days...

Something that's been on my mind

Normally, I can deal with people’s mistakes, but this is something that has been bothering me for a really long time. I just never said anything about until now partly because I feel like being angry at the world… Using correct grammar doesn’t mean you have to say “[whatever the noun/pronoun you’re referring to] and I” every time you talk about another person...

just a few more days

…my roommate never leaves the room I NEED MY PRIVACY

Do I have a reason to hate life?

Is there something wrong with my life? Is this a problem? Should I be upset? worried? No, I’m blessed; I have a good life. Stop crying. Stop messing things up. There’s nothing wrong There’s nothing wrong There’s nothing wrong… you’re just sleep-deprived & PMSing.

call me pessimistic

Everyone is hurting, but nobody cares. That’s the cold hard truth. We’re all selfish & could care less about what others are going through. Rather, we want to talk about our own problems, expecting others to listen & to give advice. but we keep forgetting that NO ONE CARES.

I should've gotten more involved with the Asian...

gracieatworld: :( I wish I got more involved with the non-Asian community here. & to be honest, the only reason why I flocked towards the Asians was cause that’s where I thought I would feel more accepted.

“Two friends are ordering lunch. One says, ‘I’m in the mood for a...”

– “Eating Animals” by Jonathan Safran Foer

sign of the times

i miss… being skinny being able to fit and look good in my clothes playing the piano having no responsibilities the summer my older brothers having a car feeling wanted my room & bed comfort privacy working-out I want it all back. I want my old self & life back. I miss it all, but there’s nothing I can do about it. I can’t go back in time. Sitting here &...

I confess, these past few days…weeks… MONTHS, I’ve been acting really immature and pathetic. I apologize greatly to all those who had to deal with me during those times. But fear not for I am a new person! No more nonsense from a hopeless romantic. No more pathetic and meaningless worries. No more stupidness. I promise not to talk about these childish and petty issues. I am a...

i am so pathetic.

can’t register for classes because my account is on hold. this is grrrrrrreeeeaaatttttttt -edit- OKAY, so I finally worked things out with the financial aid office; they didn’t update my account… I am registered for: Drawing I Spanish Intro to Macro Intro to Stats & Econ This is not what I originally planned on taking. And looking at my schedule for next semester makes...

just three more weeks of this hell

I took a wonderful 30 minute nap. After I woke up, I went to the bathroom. Then I came back to my room & noticed that my water bottle was running low on water. I went downstairs to fill up my water bottle, and as I come back up, I see my roommate & her friend going down. It looked like they were going outside, so I asked Birgitta if the door was unlocked (y’know since I only went...

Maybe it’s cause I only got 2 hours of sleep or because I’m feeling particularly depressed today, or maybe it’s the fact that he puts his friends before us or that he doesn’t even try to contact us, maybe I’m just letting my loneliness get the best of me, or maybe it’s cause I am constantly reminded of him by almost everything and everyone… The fact of...

I have to stop being so cynical and pessimistic. This isn’t healthy.

My side of the room is a mess, I’m running out of clean underwear, I’m getting flabby and my “To Do” List keeps getting longer… This week was absolutely horrible — horrible in the sense that I did absolutely nothing. Given, there are times when relaxing is an absolute blessing, but now is certainly not the time. I was so unproductive this week, and I know that...

i miss my older brothers

My roommate asked me today why I don’t sleep in our room anymore. She wanted to know if it was her fault, like if she’s been snoring loudly or something. Of course, snoring is/was not the reason why I hate being in the room. It’s the fuckin’ fact that she always has her friends watching movies late at night or she’s already asleep & is such a light sleeper that I...